“Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear.” – George Addai
As a person with bipolar disorder, I tend to be more fearful of change than a “normal” person.
“You’re going to fail”; “You’ll let your family down”; or “You’ll do it and then figure out you hate it. Just stay where you are”. – Those are all thoughts I have which prevent me from experiencing positive change. Bipolar individuals often remain in a job or a relationship that is toxic. This can especially be harmful for a person with BP, especially if they grew up with a narcissist parent like I did.
I know when I have lived this way for too long it can trigger depression. It’s really a viscous cycle, as long as those with Bipolar remain still or froze, or refuse to remove toxic people from our lives.
In the spirit of growth, I’ve decided to make the leap from a successful career in sales to betting it all on the stroke of my pen.
I have completed my manuscript for a children’s book about the little ones of police officers and the view they hold of their family dynamic. This was an easy subject for me to settle on because my own family is a police family.
I watch my children everyday enjoy the highs and lows of watching their father go to work and what they experience in their lives because of it. From my vantage point, I watch them as they’ve slowly come to terms with why their family is different from almost everyone else’s. They are very proud of their father and the life definitely has more pros than cons but it’s a different dynamic than the norm.
I completed my storyboard and layout for illustrations today and I already have my finished manuscript and copyright. Up next is illustrating the book and then publishing. Keep your figures crossed and send some good vibes my way, please.
I will not fear the unknown. I will tackle it, wrestle it, and win.