Today’s blog share comes from Swimming Upstream. I believe the blog’s title is a perfect analogy of the way most of us living with Bipolar Disorder feel a lot.
Following up on something in a previous post: my severe lack of self-esteem makes it difficult to socialize on a normal level.
I don’t feel like I have anything to give another person, whether as a friend or a casual acquaintance. I don’t think other people are interested in being around me, and if I try I feel like they are actually repulsed somehow by my attempt to interact with them. I am not interesting, I lose track of conversations, I have a hard time listening, and when I do say something it usually comes out wrong, and I feel stupid as a result. This effect gets worse in proportion to how much I would like to have a conversation with someone (which is rarely the case, but it happens).
I am terribly awkward at making conversation because I am overwhelmed while the other person is talking; my…
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